Verse 2.4.272

Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 2.4.272:

पूर्वाभ्यास-वशेनेयं व्रज-भूमिर् यदा बलात् ।
स तल्-लीलानुकम्पाशाप्य् अक्रमेद् धृदयं मम ॥ २७२ ॥

pūrvābhyāsa-vaśeneyaṃ vraja-bhūmir yadā balāt |
sa tal-līlānukampāśāpy akramed dhṛdayaṃ mama || 272 ||

pūrva–previous; abhyāsa–practice; vaśena–by the influence; iyam–this; vraja-bhūmiḥ–the land of Vraja; yadā–when; balāt–forcefully; sā–that; tat–His; līlā–pastimes; anukampā–for His sympathy; āśā–hankering; api–also; ākramet–it would seize; hṛdayam–heart; mama–my.

However, when I remembered this Vraja-bhūmi by the influence of past practice, I would be aggrieved at heart with the hope of experiencing the pastimes of my worshipable Śrī Madana-gopāla.

Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda

(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)

Any forceful superimposition is generally not long-lasting. Śrī Gopa-kumāra would force himself to see Śrī Rāmacandrajī as Śrī Madana-gopāla, but this contemplation did not last long. To explain this, Gopa-kumāra speaks this verse beginning with pūrva. He says, “Due to the influence of previous practice, I cherished the hope of receiving the mercy of my worshipable Deity and harbored the desire to experience His pastimes in Śrī Vṛndāvana. When this ardent desire would forcibly attack my heart, I would experience great distress, and my desire to leave Ayodhyā for Dvārāvatī would become stronger.”