Verse 2.4.269

Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 2.4.269:

न चेष्टा-देव-पादानां तत्-तत्-क्रीडानुसारिणीम् ।
विहार-माधुरीं काञ्चिन् नापि तां तां कृपां लभे ॥ २६९ ॥

na ceṣṭā-deva-pādānāṃ tat-tat-krīḍānusāriṇīm |
vihāra-mādhurīṃ kāñcin nāpi tāṃ tāṃ kṛpāṃ labhe || 269 ||

na–not; ca–and; iṣṭa-deva–of my worshipable Lord; pādānām–of the lotus feet; tat-tat-krīḍā–with the respective pastimes; anusāriṇīm–in accordance; vihāra–of pleasure pastimes; mādhurīm–sweetness; kāñcit–anything; na–not; api–even; tām tām–that; kṛpām–mercy; labhe–I received.

In Ayodhyā, I never experienced the varieties of sweet pastimes of the lotus feet of my worshipable Lord, nor did I ever receive His mercy in the form of His embraces, kisses, and so on.

Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda

(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)

Śrī Gopa-kumāra says, “I never witnessed Śrī Raghunāthajī’s sweet pleasure-filled pastimes in Ayodhyā.” What kind of blissful, sweet pastimes is he referring to? Influenced by the mood of extreme reverence there, Gopa-kumāra does not utter Śrī Gopāladeva’s name, but rather addresses Him as iṣṭa-deva-pādānām, ‘the lotus feet of my worshipable Lord.’

He says, “The sweetness of Bhagavān Śrī Madana-gopāla’s pastimes–the indescribable way He plays the flute, the way in which He charms the gopīs, and so on–these, I did not witness in Śrī Raghunāthajī’s activities. In my meditation, I used to experience Śrī Madana-gopāla-deva’s embraces, kisses, and so on, but in Ayodhyā, I could not directly experience His mercy in a similar way.”