Brihad Bhagavatamrita (commentary)
by Śrī Śrīmad Bhaktivedānta Nārāyana Gosvāmī Mahārāja | 2005 | 440,179 words | ISBN-13: 9781935428329
The Brihad-bhagavatamrita Verse 2.3.69, English translation, including commentary (Dig-darshini-tika): an important Vaishnava text dealing with the importance of devotional service. The Brihad-bhagavatamrita, although an indepent Sanskrit work, covers the essential teachings of the Shrimad Bhagavatam (Bhagavata-purana). This is verse 2.3.69 contained in Chapter 3—Bhajana (loving service)—of Part two (prathama-khanda).
Verse 2.3.69
Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 2.3.69:
श्रीमन्-मदन-गोपाल-देव-पाद-सरोजयोः ।
लीलाद्य्-अनुभवाभावो माम् अयं बाधते किल ॥ ६९ ॥śrīman-madana-gopāla-deva-pāda-sarojayoḥ |
līlādy-anubhavābhāvo mām ayaṃ bādhate kila || 69 ||śrīmat-madana-gopāla-deva–of the lovely enchanting cowherd; pādasarojayoḥ–to the lotus feet; līlā–of the divine pastimes; ādi–and so forth; anubhava–of experience; abhāvaḥ–the lack; mām–me; ayam–this; bādhate–this troubled; kila–indeed.
I was dissatisfied because I was not experiencing the glories and pastimes of the lotus feet of Śrīman Madana-gopāla.
Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda
(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)
What was the reason for that dissatisfaction? Śrī Gopa-kumāra explains this here in this verse beginning with śrīmat. He says, “Although there is no difference between Śrī Śiva and Śrī Kṛṣṇa, still I was unable to experience Śrī Madana-gopāla’s sweetness, and so I was not content.” The word ādi indicates Madana-gopāla’s qualities–His beauty (saundarya), His sweetness (mādhurya), His mercy (kāruṇya), and so on. “It was especially painful for me not to experience His pastimes. This was the cause for my dissatisfaction.”