Verse 2.2.83

Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 2.2.83:

तत्राथाप्य् अवसं तेषां प्रभाव-भर-दर्शनात् ।
गुरु-वाग्-गौरवाद् दृष्ट-फलत्वाच् चात्यजन् जपम् ॥ ८३ ॥

tatrāthāpy avasaṃ teṣāṃ prabhāva-bhara-darśanāt |
guru-vāg-gauravād dṛṣṭa-phalatvāc cātyajan japam || 83 ||

tatra–there; atha api–nevertheless; avasam–I stayed; teṣām–their; prabhāva–power; bhara–immense; darśanāt–because of seeing; guru–of my spiritual guide; vāk–for the words; gauravāt–out of respect; dṛṣṭa-phalatvāt–because of having seen its result; ca–also; atyajan–not abandoning; japam–chanting of my mantra.

Nevertheless, I remained in Tapoloka. Being impressed by the great power of those sages, I could go nowhere else. At the same time, out of reverence for the words of my guru and because I had clearly experienced the benefit of my mantra, I did not abandon my chanting.

Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda

(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)

The brāhmaṇa might ask, “If this were the case, why did you not return to Maharloka?”

Śrī Gopa-kumāra replies, “It is true that my desire for darśana of Bhagavān virtually faded away in Tapoloka. Nonetheless, I was compelled to stay there because I directly experienced the unlimited, unobstructed force of the mystic powers, such as aṇimā, which were manifested by Śrī Sanaka and his brothers and which were attending them like maidservants. Thus, I could not leave.”

The brāhmaṇa might also wonder, “By associating with the ātmārāma sages, your desire to see the Lord almost disappeared. Did you stop chanting your mantra, which is the real cause of receiving the darśana of Bhagavān?”

Gopa-kumāra replies, “When Śrī Gurudeva gave me the mantra, he ordered, ‘Never give up chanting this mantra.’ On the strength of this instruction and out of respect for Śrī Gurudeva, I somehow managed to maintain my chanting, but not with the same affection and attachment as before.”