Verse 2.2.60

Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 2.2.60:

किन्तु यज्ञ-समाप्तौ स्याद् दुःखम् अन्तर्हिते प्रभौ ।
वृत्ते यज्ञान्तरे चास्य प्रादुर्भावात् पुनः सुखम् ॥ ६० ॥

kintu yajña-samāptau syād duḥkham antarhite prabhau |
vṛtte yajñāntare cāsya prādurbhāvāt punaḥ sukham || 60 ||

kintu–however; yajña–of sacrifice; samāptau–at the conclusion; syāt–it may be; duḥkham–unhappiness; antarhite–disappeared; prabhau–when the Lord; vṛtte–during the function; yajña–the sacrifice; antare–during; ca–and; asya–His; prādurbhāvāt–because of the appearance; punaḥ–again; sukham–happiness.

However, as soon as the sacrifice was over, Śrī Yajñeśvara would disappear, leaving me grief-stricken. Then, when He would reappear at the start of another fire sacrifice, all my distress would be cast away.

Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda

(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)

In three verses, beginning here with kintu, Śrī Gopa-kumāra explains why he desired to find a realm superior to Maharloka, and how, because of this, he developed a sense of detachment from living there. He says, “Śrī Yajñeśvara would vanish at the end of every yajña, overwhelming my heart with anguish. Yet, the Lord, who is submissive to His beloved servants, would not go away for long. He would reappear as soon as the next fire sacrifice would start, and I would again be swept away in bliss. However, during the interim periods when I could not see Him, I genuinely suffered great mental distress.”