Brihad Bhagavatamrita (commentary)
by Śrī Śrīmad Bhaktivedānta Nārāyana Gosvāmī Mahārāja | 2005 | 440,179 words | ISBN-13: 9781935428329
The Brihad-bhagavatamrita Verse 1.5.87, English translation, including commentary (Dig-darshini-tika): an important Vaishnava text dealing with the importance of devotional service. The Brihad-bhagavatamrita, although an indepent Sanskrit work, covers the essential teachings of the Shrimad Bhagavatam (Bhagavata-purana). This is verse 1.5.87 contained in Chapter 5—Priya (the beloved devotees)—of Part one (prathama-khanda).
Verse 1.5.87
Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 1.5.87:
अतोऽत्र तस्यागमनेऽप्य् आशा मेऽपगता बत ।
मन्येऽधुनात्मनः शीघ्रं मरणं तद्-अनुग्रहम् ॥ ८७ ॥ato'tra tasyāgamane'py āśā me'pagatā bata |
manye'dhunātmanaḥ śīghraṃ maraṇaṃ tad-anugraham || 87 ||Therefore, now I have given up hope of His return. However, if I quickly die now, then I shall consider it His special mercy.
Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda
(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)
Alas, how has this misery come about? Therefore what to speak about having His darśana, I have even given up the hope of His coming here. Now if I shall die soon then I shall consider it to be His special mercy. Having seen so much neglect by Him, I cannot even hope for His darśana.