Verse 1.3.39-40

Sanskrit text, Unicode transliteration, Word-for-word and English translation of verse 1.3.39-40:

मयि नारद वर्तेत कृपा-लेशोऽपि चेद् धरेः ।
तदा किं पारिजातोषा-हरणादौ मया रणः ॥ ३९ ॥
मां किम् आराधयेद् दासं किम् एतच् चादिशेत् प्रभुः ।
स्वागमैः कल्पितैस् त्वं च जनान् मद्-विमुखान् कुरु ॥ ४० ॥

mayi nārada varteta kṛpā-leśo'pi ced dhareḥ |
tadā kiṃ pārijātoṣā-haraṇādau mayā raṇaḥ || 39 ||
māṃ kim ārādhayed dāsaṃ kim etac cādiśet prabhuḥ |
svāgamaiḥ kalpitais tvaṃ ca janān mad-vimukhān kuru || 40 ||

O Nārada, if I had a fraction of Śrī Kṛṣṇa’s mercy in me, then at the time of taking away the Pārijāta flower or the kidnapping episode of Uṣā, why would He personally fight with me?

Why would He worship me as His own servant? Besides, why would He order me to go to the material world, write a fallacious commentary on the tantras and make people averse to me?

Commentary: Dig-darśinī-ṭīkā with Bhāvānuvāda

(By Śrīla Sanātana Gosvāmī himself including a deep purport of that commentary)

“In this way, deliberating upon my official duties, there is no trace of mercy of Śrī Kṛṣṇa seen upon me. All this is not simply conjecture, but His negligence is personally seen.” This is voiced by the two verses beginning with mayi.

“O Nārada, if there is the slightest tinge of grace in me from Bhagavān, then would I have fought with Him after He took the Pārijāta flower and after the kidnapping of Aniruddha by Uṣā? Moreover, seeing that I am a servant of Śrī Kṛṣṇa, then why would the master worship me, his own servant? On the contrary, that worship by my Prabhu has become a subject of ridicule in this world as anger arose in Śrī Kṛṣṇa, and that is why He performed my worship. Instead of honoring me, He made me feel extremely shameful, thus immersing me in an ocean of sorrow.

“So for obtaining a first-class son, Śrī Bhagavān worshipped me and obtained a boon. In this way, the worship of the servant done by Śrī Bhagavān and the acquisition of such boons are not symptomatic of blessings, rather they are symptoms of utter ridicule."

The deep import of Mahādeva’s ensuing dialogue is that by all these activities, it is clearly visible that Bhagavān has not pardoned all offenses. Furthermore, if Bhagavān even slightly favored me, why would He order me to make the people averse to Śrī Bhagavān by creating one's own imaginary scriptures.

Actually, this is an order to propagate bhagavad-bhakti and is the symptom of mercy. Otherwise, an utter disregard in His order would be the effect. Śrī Bhagavān cleverly engaged Śrī Śiva in His beloved service as the inaugurator of bhakti, or in the pursuit of that rarely accessible bhakti gave the order to conceal it. Yet bhakti-rasika Śrī Mahādeva followed His order. Due to having natural bhakti, He performed this service to conceal bhakti. Unable to tolerate this, he naturally became repentant.